Hey Drama Goblins,
I actually have a lot of stories bubbling up in me, but not the time to get them up and out. I prioritized other things over writing this week.
I’m committed to posting weekly because I told myself (and you!) that I would, and I haven’t been doing great at stickin’ with plans and goals in the past couple of years. I want to stick with this one.
I don’t want to disappoint myself or y’all. I know that that no one will think less of me if I’m not delivering Sister Ex-quality content on a weekly basis, and yet… there’s a not small part of me that believes otherwise. It’s a part that I have worked very, very hard to make smaller and smaller, but it’s still there.
And, this space was meant for me to practice writing as a craft and therapy. Not just for knockin’ shizz out and checking a box.
I’ve always been envious of people who need to work out every day. They feel it when they don’t. That’s not me, but I do feel the loss of not writing. I know writing is good for me.
Why is it so damn hard to prioritize the things that are good for me?
And, the things I have been doing instead (making resin charms, hanging out with friends, watching the meshuggene debate, taking the rare evening to watch TV) are also objectively good for me.
I miss the big swaths of time I had last year right around this time when I started this Substack. I want to do everything!
But now, at around 9:30pm on a Tuesday night, I’m going to do “nothing,” which means I’ll finish this post, wash the dishes, text with a couple of friends, take a soak in the hot tub, wash my face, read a bit of my book club book, think about what I’m going to do tomorrow, and finally, the ultimate nothing: sleep.
I’m so glad you’re here. I will be back.
Lara
I love reading your writing and I love the things you are doing in place of writing. I’m okay with whatever you choose to do. I’m just so glad that you are in a happier place, switching the inner voice to messages of grace instead of judgement and sleeping well for a change. ❤️
I know how you feel, Lara. I've been sick for a month and feel like i have been letting people down by not posting. But show yourself some grace...it's all good. :)